|Sorry for the Rant!
||[Aug. 7th, 2005|10:42 pm]
Itty Bitty Titty Committee
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I used to wear like a 34B before I lost weight. Now, I'm a 32A and am finally ready to embrace it :)
I had a major breakdown this past year...it was like I didn't feel feminine at all. I had been going out with my college boyfriend for about 9 months when I found out that he had been webcamming with some girl from his highschool. He complained to her about how I was flat and consequently, he could not get his kicks...if you know what I mean...(from certain activities which my ex-boyfriend had absolutely no problem getting his kicks with) She asked if he got his kicks from her, and he replied that he did indeed. I saw pictures of her- she was HUGE...I mean, even if she was thin, her boobs would probably be larger in proportion to her..but she is quite a big girl...making hers quite big. I couldn't believe he didn't just talk to me about things...and if it reeeally mattered to him, why did he date me in the first place? Or why wouldn't he just dump me rather than doing such a pathetic activity (and repeatedly lying about it)?
Well, after researching all sorts of breast augmentation (knowing I couldn't afford it), I thought I might save up to do something about it.
Then, I flew down to FL to see my family over my spring break (my family moved to FL from LI, NY last summer) and found out that my mother's breast cancer had metastasized to her liver.
After some time had passed, I found my boyfriend was up to those tricks again...and I felt lousy. I'd go to stores and not be able to fill out shirts. I couldn't find any good bras. I had the same two I'd used since 8th grade, which now hang off of me...plus one strapless that is OK. It felt like everything I watch and everywhere I go, all that feminine beauty comes down to is boobs.
My sisters and all my girlfriends lately have been so insecure about their bodies. Why? Because there are between like one and three things about their body that they really wish were different. But, on the other hand, they are all sooo incredibly beautiful and have so many features that so many people could envy!
When we look in the mirror, we have to see the good- and then accentuate that and just take our best features and find confidence in them!
On another note, I am now in love with Victoria's Secret. Even though they're expensive and it takes padding to actually get a bit of cleavage for me, I don't mind- cause it has helped to make the most of what little I have in a way that I feel more comfortable shopping for shirts- making me feel more proportionate. Other bras felt tight around my ribcage and the cups didn't really cling tightly enough up top. But, the Victoria's Secret ones fit.
I think people have finally convinced me that in the long run, I'm better off with my naturally smaller boobs...even if it seems like your college years are a time where you'd really love to have them. I don't know how I'd deal with the saggyness and whatnot.
In the long run, it's really so true- you're as sexy and confident as you let yourself be...and if it's not good enough for some guy, then screw him. The novelty of boobs will wear off soon enough.
I'm starting to think the "you're only really considered hot(or like a woman rather than a little girl) if you have big boobs" phase may be dying out, too. :) I find that taking care of myself, dressing nicely, and just doing my hair really help me to feel confident.
People should post beautiful pictures of themselves, emphasizing features they really like. Even the top models in the world are people, too. And they all have flaws- whether they are hidden by photopgraphers or not
Everyone has a different, unique look..and everyone else has a different taste - making them attracted to different looks...and that is part of what makes us beautiful