||[Apr. 24th, 2005|03:42 pm]
Itty Bitty Titty Committee
|[||the soothing melodies of
|||||I want to Break Free ~Queen||]|
So I just joined this community because I think I need a support group. I'm 20 years old and my boobs are less than an A cup. I hate the way I look and sometimes don't feel feminin at all because I am so flat chested. I hate it. The girls I live with keep telling be that I'm lucky and don't have to worry about back pain or whatever but I don't feel lucky. I feel like I will never be pretty or wanted. Every time there is a discussion about what men like or whatever it usually comes back to boobs and I feel absolutly terrible about myself. I am not a tiny girl, my breast size isn't in proportion to my body and I just feel ugly. Even when I get dressed up I still rarely feel pretty because of it. My friends joke about my bra size, I do too but it does hurt, especially when they do it behind my back. Last week one of my housemates took be shopping to "girlify me" (becasue I'm a jeans and t-shirt girl) I bought this pretty pink top and was wearing it around the house. A few friends were over. I went down stairs to change and one of my friends says something like "Now she needs something to fill it out". I know she didn't mean anytihng by it but god that took away everything that that shopping trip was supposed to do, boost my confidence. I just feel crappy about myself all the time you know?
Anyway thanks for listening to my rant